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Thursday, August 27th, 2009

Time:2:09 am.
I have a terrible, unrelenting frustration with humanity. Can that be considered "enlightenment?" Or simply immaturity?
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Tuesday, August 25th, 2009

Subject:Deep Thoughts
Time:12:41 am.
Mood: amused.
One of my all-time favorite paragraphs from Salinger's Catcher in the Rye...

"...That's the whole trouble. You can't ever find a place that's nice and peaceful, because there isn't any. You may think there is, but once you get there, when you're not looking, somebody'll sneak up and write 'Fuck you' right under your nose. Try it sometime. I think, even, if I ever die, and they stick me in a cemetery, and I have a tombstone and all, it'll say 'Holden Caulfield' on it, and then what year I was born and what year I died, and then right under that it'll say 'Fuck you.' I'm positive, in fact."

Thank you, sweet Holden. I wish you were real.
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Thursday, August 13th, 2009

Time:6:37 pm.
I tear myself apart mentally for absolutely no reason. Why?

My journal has become a festering pot of emo-ness.
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Tuesday, July 7th, 2009

Subject:Michael Jackson would be the coolest zombie.
Time:2:22 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
I half expected Michael Jackson's casket to pop open, the King of Pop to rise, alive, dressed as a zombie from his Thriller days, and perform the biggest, most elaborate show ever witnessed in the history of the world.

If that happened, I think it would be agreed that Michael Jackson had just pulled the most profound, in depth prank ever... and he played the ENTIRE WORLD.

I'm watching the funeral now, and am STILL hoping that this will happen.
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Friday, June 26th, 2009

Time:12:38 pm.
Michael Jackson's "Hold Me" from the Free Willy soundtrack always makes me cry anyway. Now, it makes me want to curl into the fetal position and sleep for 48 hours. His death is truly detrimental to my sanity.
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Thursday, June 4th, 2009

Time:4:06 pm.
Is there a point at which a person becomes too independent?
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Time:12:30 pm.
"My biological clock ticks faster when I watch YouTube videos of babies."
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2009

Time:12:40 am.
Mood: listless.
I have zero passion left for learning. When I was younger, I tried to absorb everything possible. I loved to read, loved to write, loved to be artistic and create things. College has completely "ruined" me. Formal education has had as many pitfalls as high points. I don't get it. I complete assignments just because I don't want to fail. That is my only motivation at this point. I don't even care about "walking" in May, anymore. Cap and gowns were supposed to be ordered last week... didn't bother. I keep hoping I can just order them whenever I want. I get my degree at the end of summer, officially. Two classes left.

I don't even feel like dating anymore. I don't feel like bothering. It seems like it just takes up time. Maybe I feel this way because I'm in a weird mood. Some days I feel like a significant other would be nice; other days... not so much. I don't feel like dealing with it. Some things don't seem worth it a lot of the time. I don't go to parties anymore; I drink socially, which is now only on the weekends; I spend all of my time either studying for my next class, writing a paper, slaving at work, or sleeping. I have no motivation to do anything. I treasure just "sitting." I hate T.V. except for the occasional House, MD. I love to read, but not books that are forced down my throat (18th Century British Literature... wow, I'd rather just f-ing LIVE in that ridiculous period of history than read about it in the 21st...). I have a spectacular form of road rage that seems to get worse with age. I only want to spend time with my parents most of the time.

Although... I want to move away. Soon. I don't have any money after I pay tuition on Friday. Like, literally, no money in my bank account. Actually, when I get paid on Friday, that check will immediately go into my checking account to make almost the exact amount of the second half of my tuition that I have to pay. I don't go out and fucking spend cash all the time either. I don't have any bills. I so rarely buy clothes. I go out to eat occasionally. I live off of my tips. I buy gas, and sometimes lunch. I love that this is a huge-ass-fucking-rant.

Maybe it's because I started my period today.

My Lord, I cannot stand watching the show on TLC about the woman with like 18 children, of all ages. You must be joking me. How can you believe that it is YOUR responsibility to raise 18 children? That's not even fair. Idiots. I seriously hate people that add that much to the population. They're super religious too. The woman probably isn't on birth control. I hate thinking about certain people having sex... this couple for instance. She's had so many children... her hoo-ha... I cannot imagine. UGH, please. How can you NOT watch this show and think about this couple having sex, though? They probably bump on the set, after every take. That's how they have so many children.

I have just realized that I am suffering from "apathy."

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Wednesday, October 17th, 2007

Time:6:33 pm.
Mood: amused.
I wonder why the Nat'l Hurricane Center and the National Oceanic & Atmospheric Administration predict such terrible, life-threatening, ominous hurricanes... yet this season, we got a little wind and a thunderstorm out of some weird, random front that came across Jax, went out into the Atlantic and swept back as a tropical storm?

I've always wondered that. Fear-mongering National Weather Service!!!

Knock on wood, though.

PS: If you need to know anything about Vietnam, talk to me, because I know everything. Half-joking. I love my V&AP class, yet I do not today, since I have a huge presentation on the Ho Chi Minh Trail, along with a midterm. Must stop wasting time.

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Friday, September 14th, 2007

Subject:I don't check LJ anymore.
Time:8:23 pm.
Mood: nostalgic.
I miss Europe.
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Saturday, July 28th, 2007

Subject:Life like a whirlwind.
Time:1:51 am.
Mood: calm.
Man I am busy. It feels fantastic. I'm continually being challenged, which has been a fairly recent development over the last year. No stagnation, just constant motivation and ambition. I've got a plan. I'm going to be successful... not necessarily monetarily (even though that would be nice), but living up to my own aspirations for myself and accomplishing my own goals, and running around like crazy just discovering new things and new people and new situations to keep me being comfortable with being uncomfortable.

Sooo I work at Starbucks now. It has finally sucked me in (took a couple years for that to happen). I am really enjoying it. This first week has definitely been challenging, but it's getting better already. I feel sorry for everyone else having to put up with the n00b questions (Sarah McCartan, Josh Watson). Thank you. And I feel sorry for anyone going through drive-thru. Not because I myself am a n00b, but because some people ordering through d-t MUST LEAD A SAD DESOLATE LIFE SINCE MUMBLING AND NO ONE BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND YOU THROUGH THE DT HEADSET MUST REALLY WEAR ON YOUR CORPORATE AND SOCIAL VENTURES. Oh, and you know what? There's this little tiny thing called patience; it's a virtue, and most people going through d-t need to look into it. And no, you never said that you wanted that drink as a frappuccino. I'm sorry. Small rant. But really. I'll learn to put up with it eventually.

I'm saving up for a nice road bike. I'm really, really, really, really excited about it. Hopefully I'll be able to get a nice custom bike from a local shop here soon. Rockclimbing is becoming a really big part of my life as well, I'm falling in love with it swiftly and surely. Haley and I can conquer so many walls now. Tried slacklining for the first time last night - it's pretty much like tightrope walking - and it's one of the hardest things ever. It requires a ridiculous amount of balance and finesse.

Anyway. Random entry. I haven't updated in a long time. But now I might just take a little nap.

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Monday, June 4th, 2007

Time:2:46 am.
Mood: numb.
Tonight: that just went down in the record books for being the most heartbreaking goodbye that I have ever experienced.

Vaarwel mijn Nederlandse jongen; ik zal u missen, Dany.
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Saturday, June 2nd, 2007

Subject:Don't pay any attention to this
Time:5:09 pm.
Driving Directions from 2 Place De La Porte-maillot, Paris, ÎLE-DE-FRANCE FR to 4 Rue Ferdinand Duval, Paris, ÎLE-DE-FRANCE FR
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Thursday, May 24th, 2007

Subject:(he he he)
Time:6:22 pm.
Mood: energetic.
Seeing Equus with Sarah tomorrow night (Whitney, you should be here).


Meeting Harry Potter after the show.

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Thursday, May 3rd, 2007

Subject:Four weeks left in Sweden, six weeks left in Europe.
Time:3:51 pm.
Mood: amused.

Here"s to a month left with these kids, and the good times we have to look forward to within the next 4 weeks...Collapse )

I have fallen in love with Sweden.
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Monday, April 30th, 2007

Time:7:18 pm.
So tonight is the infamous Walpurgis Night, the pagan holiday that is celebrated by almost all of Central Europe and Scandinavia. Today is the exact halfway point between last year's Halloween and this upcoming Halloween... and tonight is supposed to be filled with mischievousness, fire, and debauchery. That sounds awfully pagan to me. There will be huge bonfires everywhere, fireworks, awesome things, etcetera. I'm not talking little dinky bonfires... I'm talking about huge, 2-story high bonfires. Badass ones. On this night, supposedly all witches (past and present?) celebrate the coming of the spring season.

So to start things off, it's about 7:30PM here and a boy is outside of my window with a torch (on fire) in his hand. He just tried to light a bush on fire. Tomorrow is a huge holiday across said regions, since everyone will be supposedly experiencing their worst hangovers of the year. It's not even dark outside yet and I can hear fireworks go off every few minutes or so.

I love Sweden.
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Saturday, April 28th, 2007

Subject:I think my mood is always "amused"
Time:5:03 pm.
Mood: amused.
Surveys need to put a restraining order against me.Collapse )
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Friday, April 27th, 2007

Subject:Annina - this was awesome.
Time:11:47 am.
Mood: amused.
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Sunday, April 22nd, 2007

Time:2:10 pm.
Mood: amused.

TV theme songs II

Score: 100% (15 out of 15)

I'm not sure if I should be happy or sad about this.
It was a matching quiz that gave you 15 past and present television show theme song soundbites, and you had to match the soundbite with the correct television show. Needless to say I got them all right. Meaning somehow I knew the theme songs to Welcome Back Kotter, Mork and Mindy, the Johnny Carson Show, The Love Boat, Ally McBeal, Melrose Place, and several others. Damn I'm proud of myself.

What the quiz doesn't realize is that I used my flawless powers of reason and guessed on half of them, haha.
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Sunday, April 15th, 2007

Time:10:15 am.
Ш рщзу умукнщту сфт куфв ершы. Ершы зкщифидн ьфлуы тщ ыутыу ыштсу Ш фь ензштп щт ф сщьзгеук шт еру Рщеуд Шяьфшдщмф... Ш дщму Кгыышф. Ершы шы ыгср ф ыекфтпу здфсу, нуе фиыщдгеудн иуфгешагд шт шеы щцт ыекфтпу цфн. Ыфышиф!
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